I am 1 in 4.
I’ll never forget the pure, inexplicable happiness when I saw these two pink lines.. a total out of body experience.
It was the culmination of so many feelings and emotions from months of trying, waiting, tracking, stressing & disappointment with each period.
I soaked it in myself. Then shared it with Nate. We were over the moon.
About a month later, those dreams and plans we were building came crashing down as I miscarried our first baby. It was physical & emotional agony. A kind of emptiness & sorrow like I had never experienced before. I felt so alone. I was crushed.
What happened next was a season of leaning into Jesus as we navigated grief & battled fear as we tried again to conceive. I had to come full circle to the deepest belief that even if _____, He is still good & He is faithful.
Without that devastating loss, I wouldn’t have my precious Raegan. And while that doesn’t take away the sadness I still feel when I let my mind & heart reminisce, it does give me peace & the deepest deepest gratitude for my miracle babe.
God alone brings beauty from ashes.
If you are grieving, know you’re not alone.
Your pain and your loss is real.
But the One who made you, can also comfort you in a way that can restore your soul.
Cling to Him, sister!
To read the beginning of my three part series on our miscarriage, click HERE.
